I don’t do well with death on any level. I’ve had to attend quite a few funerals in my youth and while I haven’t had to deal with a personal friend or family death in some time, I must say that I’ve had many a musical influence pass on that has affected me deeply, as these people not only inspired me to become a DJ, they comforted me through rough times in life with their words, amazed me with their talent, and truly reinforced to me that there must be some sort of higher being out there that blessed them with the immense talents they possess.

For those who know me personally, they know a few of these influences: Dilla, Luther Vandross, James Brown, Isaac Hayes (among others!)…and of course, Michael Jackson.

The one thing I remember the most about MJ was that he was my first crush. However, being the G that I am, I would never admit to it. I was always teased by one of my uncles about it-even when the crush was long gone. Y’all couldn’t tell me MJ wasn’t going to marry me! He had me at Billie Jean. However I was a pretty stupid kid and didn’t really understand the words but I wished I was Billie Jean.

I’m sure this is the 300 millionth blog entry about MJ and I would be remiss to not make one. While I’m deeply in sorrow over his death and wish like hell it wasn’t so, his life was not easy and I know he is at peace. I also cannot be too sad as he left us with decades of music to fill our lives and the lives of future generations. The amount of gratitude felt by the millions of fans in the world for his gifts of music, dance, and style is eclipsed by what he gave us. I only wish and hope he felt that despite all the hardship he had to endure, that he knew there were people in the world who loved him.

I hope to see you again one day, Michael.

On an end note, I want to say a million thanks to Mary Pryor from We Fancy and Ladies Love NYC, who organized a Ladies Love Michael Jackson event held last Monday, June 29th. It was a very last-minute effort and I am beyond honored and blessed to have been included in this event honoring one of my heroes. I also want to thank DJs Beverly Bond, Miss Saigon, DJ Kiss, Shorty Wop, Brina Payne, and Reborn for keeping the magic alive that night.